oh my!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -18

so now i am officially at 194!!!  (insert balloons here...... yay...... and here)   lol im so happy im at 194. i got to talking to a friend of mine and she was at 196 when she began to lose weight. now she is at 171. that is a 25 lb difference. I was skyping my friend dan and he noticed right away how i looked. i noticed too. my stomach is flatter my face is not fluffy and i look better. i want to get to my goal weight so bad. i've been hovering over that gd scale now for 2 years trying to get the rest off. im tired of trying to lose weight i just want to maintain now.
i got my thing in the mail and wow did it do a number on me. i like it a lot!!! i went grocery shopping today and i noticed i was buying food for 2 different people.

MINE                                      DUSTIN
ice burg lettuce                         tortilla chips
baby green mixed lettuce                  cheetos
limes                                    corn nuts
shrimp                                   tortillas
cheeses                                     Milk               
salsa makings                             skinless chicken breast                    
(homemade and it was dank!!)              bacon
spinach                                    grapefruit juice no
eggs                                        sugar added
                                           Potato bread
                                           muffins
                                            gummie snacks
                                           coke
                                           gatorade
                                          


usually when he goes grocery shopping i never ask for my stuff which i have listed 
i would feel bad. he will usually get tortillas cheap molases bread cheeses, chips, sodas, candies, juices (like hi c)
just plain crap


tonight for dinner i made shrimp tacos
i blended up lime juice, cilantro, garlic, salt, tomatoes, onions and cooked my shrimp in that.
then i laid the shrimp on top of my lettuce wrap and spinach with cheese. on top added extra home made salsa which was a different take of what i used to cook the shrimp in. it was so delicious!!!
the spinach really added a nice flare to things!!


i had so much energy today it was intense. 
i cleaned the house, went for groceries, laundry, at the laundry matt too for dustins oiled clothes, cleaned the kitchen, cleaned out the fridge, fixed the toilet, took a movie back, 
and i was on a roll all day.
i have work tomorrow from 12-8pm which im nervous about since that whole shit with dustin went down and his ex showing up here without notice to me.
i gotta remember, i cannot control it. all i can control is myself. 
im really happy i've lost nearly 20 lbs. 18 is just what i needed to boost me self. 
so im at 194 my next goal is 190