holy crap

ran 6 miles today in 68 minutes.
i weighed in today at 187- i have not been drinking that much water lately.
last night the nightmares were kind of bad. i had 3 in a row. and an earth quake today.
any way tomorrow is my day off. of running thank goodness.

oh boy oh boy... marathon

so i've gotten a lot of stress out of my life now. and the weight seems to be coming off. i dont have any time any more to be writing. it makes me a bit sad but im going to write even if its just a paragraph. i wanna keep going on my other blog as well. the as seen on tv one. i loved writing on that one.
jeez i had a weird dream last night. so weird.
any way atkins is going way great, was having a problem with the cheese. so i tried a day with out it and that went good. then i got into my veggies a bit more. more water and fiber. i drink coffee every morning and i have had drinks, but they have not affected my weight loss. yesterday i ran 2 miles today i shoot for 4 because its on my routine now. tomorrow i have class AND a 6 mile run. monday i have off.

http://www.utahvalleymarathon.com/

thats the website for the marathon. i've been doing very well. lost a pant size, now im back to a 14 and i can fit snugly into a 12 size skirt.
shirts fit better!! anxiety is down a bit. but it gets up there during TOM. i have some radical music on my ipod to pump me up for running.
lots of techno or i just do katie perry.
so i got a car, got back into classes, im working, and live in lehi so its been really quite busy. its not even the big things its the little things. i havent even been able to hang out with some friends let alone talk to them. it makes me feel bad. but my uncle tells me that i should be more focused on work and school. he is right. shit. i need to find a balance. next goal.

wow

so i have been running a lot lately. i've been using this lipodrene but i think i have become acustomed to it. so now i had to up what the dose i was taking.

im constipated. LOL. i have been eating way too much fucking cheese. so today my goal is to not eat any god dang cheese today. i think i may have taken too much of this stuff. woops. i feel jittery and shaky.
i drank coffee with it too my bad.
lame., im awake though! i weighed myself at 199 today which is bs. but its because i havent been taking my milk thistle correctly. god im waiting to hear back from this guy i met online. he is in the navy.

he wrote this to me:

I hope I am not being a bother but you are honestly the most beautiful woman I have ever seen! How on earth are you single? I know its cheesy but you are truly the epitome of beautiful! I would absolutely love to get to know you if you were at all interested. If so email me at


I am out to sea right now so the internet is really slow.


he seems really sweet! i cant wait to hear back from him. i really cant. its like were hitting it off really well. i met this other guy online too. he seems like a sleez though.
any way.
finally my stomach is starting to feel better. my face broke out so much i dont know whats up. maybe its because im getting detoxed or something.
so last night i put toothpaste on my face so that it could clear up and i didnt wear makeup today besides eye liner and mascara. so my face could have a chance to breath.
its oily jesus so oily. im going to try and go today with out cheese. then i am going to drink an extra liter of water today. jesus im shaky too. good god. so shaky.
im hoping when i get home i can weigh in and see where im at. my goal for this month is to lose ten pounds. so to be 180 by the start of march. then by the start of april be down to 170. my chest hurts.