got over last night. last night i had such bad cravings for sugar. i conquered it last night. i ate no sugar!! so i ate a peice of cheese instead.

breakfast: 2 eggs, 1/4 avocado, 2 tbs salsa coffee water and bee pollen
total= 3 net carbs.

i ate this fabulous salmon i cooked last night so freaking good!! i have been drinking lots of water too. so the first day went great. i really want to jump on that scale almost as bad as eating ice cream. though last night i had the worst cravings for sugar. i know im repeating myself but it was bad. if my boyfriend went to the store and bought me ice cream i probably would have eaten a whole lot of carbs while he was gone then ice cream. there is no way i would have just eaten the ice cream. i would have put a dent in all this shit in the fridge.
i wanted to say to hell with it and go for it but i did not.
i thought to myself," you went this whole day and didn't eat garbage and you want to waste it?".
what is the difference between wasting one good day and wasting 6 months? length. but really they are both the same thing. so i didnt do it.
im supposed to go over to a friends house tonight for her bbq dinner party. i am going to bring over my veggie patty that i already am going to cook.
hopefully that wont make me stray. and then there will be alcohol there to im sure. and tomorrow there will be booze too when we go out with the family. and then monday im haging out with my friend jessica and were going to chilis. she loves that place and so do i. i picked it because they have a shrimp salad that is freaking delicious
im proud of my victories. 1) not caving into my cravings 2) running 2.4 miles 3) not caving into smoking again. oh yeah i quit two days ago!!
so today i might be going to the gym again. i will run, hot tub YAY!!! arms today. stretching but hot tub!!

not too much to talk about today. i will edit my post for lunch and dinner.wish me luck