last night i slept very well. i woke up slow but refreshed. now im sipping coffee n blogging :) i have a coffee date with this guy named greg. he is a vegan. and he has lost some weight. i just felt an instant connection with this guy. so i took a chance and asked him to coffee. we text yesterday a bit. it was pretty friendly. nothing crazy and sexy although that would have been nice. i cant wait to see what monday at 11 am at the coffee shop off 114th and bestie buy and game stop. im excited. by then ill look great. and also i gotta ask for that day off just in case we go do something else. it would be really cool if we just could not stop talking and went for lunch lol
11 is a great time for coffee and then hit up lunch if need beeeeeee.
i already notice my clothes are fitting nicer. my one pair of jeans my good ones are losey goosy. i would wear that and do my hair nice and make up and smell good. and not too nice just casual ahhhh god i dont think i've ever been on a date with a stranger. except for a blind date. but this is nerve racking LOL its kind of fun
now i know when alll these people say just date and have fun i know what they mean!! although i feel guilt from not telling these other guys that im dating other people. i should just say hey im seeeing other people. i hope this guy is not seeing any one. and i hope he's the one who suggests we go out again. id love to borrow some books ya know.
any way. kept on thinking about dan last night. boy i like him
i told him i really liked him and i could not stop thinking about him and i feel as though he got a little distant. i think when i go out there to visit i need to be really easy going and calming. thats my goal. but its for me too you know.
any way so i weighed in at 198. today not too shabby. especially this soon after my period its nice. lol
all this water in about a week i know i will see about 193 no problem. that will be nice to be 193 by the end of the month. i have been seeing 1 lb per day off me. so im thinking keep up and by monday (coffee date) thats 5-6 lbs. thats around 193 192!! sweetness!! oh joy!!!apetite is way down. way way way down.
i get full so fast. and i dont crave bullshit foods. this is great. im happy.
god i feel like i have just been working and working and working. holy shit. man. i gotta find a second job soon. so i can make more money.
my nails have grown nicely and my hair looks fucking great! my attitude is fabulous!! oh im so proud of myself for doing this!!! i inspired my aunt to start working out again!! poor auntie is having a hard time at work.
they are really dicking her around there
so instead of going for a beer she went to exercise im very proud of her for that. gosh i am already seeing some great progress with my weight loss. i am loving this!! i cannot wait until the end of the month well 4 days to see what i will look like. come feb i know i can get down to 180. thats my goal. it might be hard because if im only at 195 thats 15 lbs i need to lose by the end of feb. i can do it but its going to be rough. but if i can get down to 190 sooner then that would be great. if i can just get to 190 sooner and lose it within the first week of feb then i know i got almost a 3 weeks to get to 180. but look if i can lose 8 lbs in one week thats a little more than a pound a day. i gotta try to get rid of this weight in a week. and thats why i started taking the milk thistle was so i can actually see my progress. so tomorrow im anticipating 197. and hopefully by the 2end of feb i can get to 191. thats ok with me. then ill only have 11 lbs to lose in that month. i got so much money i need to save. i just want to blog all day about my weight loss and my goals but i cant LOL so i will leave to run. and i hope i have a great run today. then ill eat an egg if i can eat. LOLoh this kid told me he loved me. i want to watch something about marry so bad. i feel like her. oh man i can feel my hip bones super good right now my stomach is not too flat yet but a few more pounds and it should be slimmer :)
ok enough LOL ciao
heaviest
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
wow.... you'd never guess some lessons
so i have counted Wes, Austin, Jeremy, are in love with me. i'd never thought i'd have 3 at the same time. this is nice. but really i think i like my friend Dan the most. He's really nice.
any way today i ran 2.2 miles today. i had to split it up. 1 in am and 2end in pm
tomorrow i want to run 2 miles in the morning.
i get to sleep in thank god!! so if i have work at noon, then it takes me 15 minutes to get to work
so leave at 1145 wake up at 9 am.
appetite has been nice. no hunger no cravings. i am doing well for myself. i got my milk thistle back and i've been running. i drank 3 liters of water today. i just gotta keep up with this stuff.. ... i think i may do my 1 mile a day at least then maybe something else.
i have been so diligent on my diet. its been only one week out of my 2 week induction phase
so i think im going to stay on this and buy some of those ketosis strips. im going to sleep really good tonight
my goal is to get to 180 by the end of feb. then the end of march to be at 170
feb 180
march 170
april 160
may 150
june 140?
so im at 199 right now. i just got rid of some water weight. boooger
now this week i gotta keep count and track of my calories.
today i really didnt eat anything half a zuchini, cheese, 1/4 salad, dinner 2 boca burgers mustard cheese and lettuce.
staying ways from everything is ok for me. milk thistle is helping and so is the lipodrene
im really hoping that in a few days i can lose a bit more
199 i hope i wake up tomorrow at 197 or less.
197-6
= 191 is fine by me.
so now i just gotta go little by little and watch that scale
i think if i eat eggs for breakfast 2 eggs, coffee and salsa that is 140 calories 2 carbs
lunch is a salad that is usually 445 or so 3 carbs
dinner is tuna and spinach with cheese or salsa which is around 200 calories 1-2
im not really eating enough thats only about 800 calories per day
by my calculations i should be losing 5.6 pounds per week.
well see what happens. i think if i just burn 1100 calories per day + my bmr is 1722 i should be seeing weight loss
and you know what i have been seeing it i have like lose pants now!! WOOt
any way today i ran 2.2 miles today. i had to split it up. 1 in am and 2end in pm
tomorrow i want to run 2 miles in the morning.
i get to sleep in thank god!! so if i have work at noon, then it takes me 15 minutes to get to work
so leave at 1145 wake up at 9 am.
appetite has been nice. no hunger no cravings. i am doing well for myself. i got my milk thistle back and i've been running. i drank 3 liters of water today. i just gotta keep up with this stuff.. ... i think i may do my 1 mile a day at least then maybe something else.
i have been so diligent on my diet. its been only one week out of my 2 week induction phase
so i think im going to stay on this and buy some of those ketosis strips. im going to sleep really good tonight
my goal is to get to 180 by the end of feb. then the end of march to be at 170
feb 180
march 170
april 160
may 150
june 140?
so im at 199 right now. i just got rid of some water weight. boooger
now this week i gotta keep count and track of my calories.
today i really didnt eat anything half a zuchini, cheese, 1/4 salad, dinner 2 boca burgers mustard cheese and lettuce.
staying ways from everything is ok for me. milk thistle is helping and so is the lipodrene
im really hoping that in a few days i can lose a bit more
199 i hope i wake up tomorrow at 197 or less.
197-6
= 191 is fine by me.
so now i just gotta go little by little and watch that scale
i think if i eat eggs for breakfast 2 eggs, coffee and salsa that is 140 calories 2 carbs
lunch is a salad that is usually 445 or so 3 carbs
dinner is tuna and spinach with cheese or salsa which is around 200 calories 1-2
im not really eating enough thats only about 800 calories per day
by my calculations i should be losing 5.6 pounds per week.
well see what happens. i think if i just burn 1100 calories per day + my bmr is 1722 i should be seeing weight loss
and you know what i have been seeing it i have like lose pants now!! WOOt
Monday, January 24, 2011
going the distance 1
so today is my day off from running. tomorrow i have a four mile run. i need to be at work at 8:30 am
so if i wake up at 6:00 run and i will have time to shower.
nice. i am at 200 right now. i gotta get some milk thistle today. and i need to drink much more water. were not drinking for a few months here at the house so that is good. i have not been too good about eating cheese. but its much better eating cheese than eating bread. now i need to take my lipodrene and i havent really seen any progress with it. so this week i gotta run. 15-16 miles that first week.
it takes 150 calories per mile ran and that is 2250 calories burned that week. i need to watch it with the calories this week. so im going to keep up on that first week for a month so i get used to it. then work on the second week later.
really i have just been eating eggs, salad, veggies, tuna, cheese, oil and vinegar, pickles (i know they are killing me) LOL
i drink coffee too. so i started on spark again. so i can get some extra help keeping track of my calories.
i feel like i should go for a run today. im going to have to wait to pay for my marathon. im going to go workout now.
so if i wake up at 6:00 run and i will have time to shower.
nice. i am at 200 right now. i gotta get some milk thistle today. and i need to drink much more water. were not drinking for a few months here at the house so that is good. i have not been too good about eating cheese. but its much better eating cheese than eating bread. now i need to take my lipodrene and i havent really seen any progress with it. so this week i gotta run. 15-16 miles that first week.
it takes 150 calories per mile ran and that is 2250 calories burned that week. i need to watch it with the calories this week. so im going to keep up on that first week for a month so i get used to it. then work on the second week later.
really i have just been eating eggs, salad, veggies, tuna, cheese, oil and vinegar, pickles (i know they are killing me) LOL
i drink coffee too. so i started on spark again. so i can get some extra help keeping track of my calories.
i feel like i should go for a run today. im going to have to wait to pay for my marathon. im going to go workout now.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
oh jeeeezie
so today im at the library. i have been eating lately which has been really nice. last night i had a spinach salad with cheese and salsa and tuna. i ate three times yesterday. it was nice and i ran one mile last night. 11:41 was my lap time. im proud of that because i shaved some 19 secs off my time. im going to shoot for 11.26 tonight. quit smoking. i had one yesterday and i can really feel it in my chest today. so goal today,drinking my 8 glasses of water, no smoking, run 1 mile in 11.26 and do some elliptical. eat.
i had my 3 eggs today for breakfast and coffee. with cheese.
so about 280 calories, and 4 carbs for breakfast. and lunch i dont know if i'd be hungry
probably just another salad. today is day 2 of work. my aunt and uncle are thinking about helping me with a car. so i can work and such. my chest really hurts. i was a tad sore today. starting out at one mile slowly but surely i will get there.maybe not too slow. i would like to get my miles down to 9 minutes per mile. thats 2 .5 minutes to cut. oh boy. that will take some work.running a 5 k in 20 minutes is roughly 6 minute miles. so my period started on the 18th and the last day i had to weigh myself with an ok number was the 17th. so im trying to see if i can lose weight. im taking lipodrene and its been helping with my issues. it puts me in a better mood and gives me energy
i eat way less too. i dont want to eat shit. so far i have drank 2 waters
eaten breakfast and taken my lipodrene.
i had my 3 eggs today for breakfast and coffee. with cheese.
so about 280 calories, and 4 carbs for breakfast. and lunch i dont know if i'd be hungry
probably just another salad. today is day 2 of work. my aunt and uncle are thinking about helping me with a car. so i can work and such. my chest really hurts. i was a tad sore today. starting out at one mile slowly but surely i will get there.maybe not too slow. i would like to get my miles down to 9 minutes per mile. thats 2 .5 minutes to cut. oh boy. that will take some work.running a 5 k in 20 minutes is roughly 6 minute miles. so my period started on the 18th and the last day i had to weigh myself with an ok number was the 17th. so im trying to see if i can lose weight. im taking lipodrene and its been helping with my issues. it puts me in a better mood and gives me energy
i eat way less too. i dont want to eat shit. so far i have drank 2 waters
eaten breakfast and taken my lipodrene.
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
jesus
im up with all this water weight. 204. dang. thats 10 lbs of water hanging on that is nearly one gallon of water.
any way ill write more tomorrow. cherrieousoidua[oishd
any way ill write more tomorrow. cherrieousoidua[oishd
welp it happened
broke it off with dustin.
i get anxiety seeing that. i need to work on me.
so..... i got a bit of water weight i need to get off. i am 199 right now. and i was at 193. TOM is here and that didnt help either.
so i think tonight im going to try and run 4 miles. that is what my training regimen says to do. however its 16 weeks of training that im going to try and pull out to make it 2 months longer. so perhaps i will just try to run the 4 tonight and tomorrow would be a rest day. the next day after that looks like it could be a 5 mile day. it takes me 12 minutes to run a mile. i gotta cut that down to 9 minutes a mile then i can finish the marathon in 4 hours.
but its stamina and endurance. i have to keep the pace at 9 minute miles. so my running 4 miles / day is going to add up to 636 calories burned.
3720 and thats with work and eating breakfast and my bmr. breakfast was 3 eggs, coffee and salsa. im drinking some water right now.
breakfast was about 310 and i already subtracted that from the thing. im thinking tuna for dinner, and a salad for lunch.
tuesdays thurs and sats and suns are going to be long run days its averaging about 4-6 miles/wk its nearly 4 lbs per week i'd be losing
being at 199
with this water weight i bet i can see 193 after a while.
a week
my goal is to be in the 180's this month thats two weeks.
with my running and my atkins i can get there easy 199- 15 thats 184.
i have to go back sometime and get the rest of my stuff. im nervous about doing that because i really dont want to see him. i know what is going on. i know that he is seeing his ex again. i can put money on that.
i need to keep my head up. this sat i work 12-7 i dont know when i can come get my stuff from his place this week. i think next week would be better.
ok running. run run run run run run run run run run. i want to go hme and run. 4 miles will take me 50 minutes or so. i know i'll go home and ill be home around 8:30pm get some clothes on and go for my run. be done by like 9:15 and take a shower. i will be so fuggin tired
my anxiety kills me. it gets so fucking bad.i got it right now. i took one of my pills lipodrene for weight loss and energry. mainly energy. i was having a hard time finding motivation. this helps me get my ass in gear.
and gets me to work out hard core.
work is in a few
gotta keep positive
i get anxiety seeing that. i need to work on me.
so..... i got a bit of water weight i need to get off. i am 199 right now. and i was at 193. TOM is here and that didnt help either.
so i think tonight im going to try and run 4 miles. that is what my training regimen says to do. however its 16 weeks of training that im going to try and pull out to make it 2 months longer. so perhaps i will just try to run the 4 tonight and tomorrow would be a rest day. the next day after that looks like it could be a 5 mile day. it takes me 12 minutes to run a mile. i gotta cut that down to 9 minutes a mile then i can finish the marathon in 4 hours.
but its stamina and endurance. i have to keep the pace at 9 minute miles. so my running 4 miles / day is going to add up to 636 calories burned.
3720 and thats with work and eating breakfast and my bmr. breakfast was 3 eggs, coffee and salsa. im drinking some water right now.
breakfast was about 310 and i already subtracted that from the thing. im thinking tuna for dinner, and a salad for lunch.
tuesdays thurs and sats and suns are going to be long run days its averaging about 4-6 miles/wk its nearly 4 lbs per week i'd be losing
being at 199
with this water weight i bet i can see 193 after a while.
a week
my goal is to be in the 180's this month thats two weeks.
with my running and my atkins i can get there easy 199- 15 thats 184.
i have to go back sometime and get the rest of my stuff. im nervous about doing that because i really dont want to see him. i know what is going on. i know that he is seeing his ex again. i can put money on that.
i need to keep my head up. this sat i work 12-7 i dont know when i can come get my stuff from his place this week. i think next week would be better.
ok running. run run run run run run run run run run. i want to go hme and run. 4 miles will take me 50 minutes or so. i know i'll go home and ill be home around 8:30pm get some clothes on and go for my run. be done by like 9:15 and take a shower. i will be so fuggin tired
my anxiety kills me. it gets so fucking bad.i got it right now. i took one of my pills lipodrene for weight loss and energry. mainly energy. i was having a hard time finding motivation. this helps me get my ass in gear.
and gets me to work out hard core.
work is in a few
gotta keep positive
Saturday, January 15, 2011
oh man!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 193
cant really get my internet to work properly today for some reason. im just going to keep reloading until hopefully i get some where.
so my anticipated weight loss today is 192. if this is the case. with what im doing on top of atkins, i should be losing weight at a rate of 2 lbs per day.. and that is what i have been seeing.
so if you SHOULD be losing weight at a rate of 2lbs per week and i increased mine to 2 lbs per day is that 7x the amount?
i went through my ex's email last night. he is having a fucking baby. and to top that they are going to name her lily cora. which i dont know how to take that since cora was the name of the baby juan and i were going to name when we had one.
i dont know if i should flatter myself by saying he liked the name i picked out and wanted a part of me to be with that baby???
or did he just like that name very much. some times i wonder if im ocd. i over analyze things to the breaking point.
i guess i just want to break his heart like he broke mine. make him miss me. i do think about him often. he has given me quite a bit to learn about myself.
really all i want to do is talk with him. i want to tell him things that i have wanted to tell him. not sorry for what i did but sorry the whole thing got so out of control. and sorry we fought. sorry for trashing the place. i was coherced into doing it. just like he destroyed something nice of mine, i destroyed something of his and that was not fair because i do not believe in an eye for an eye.
i want to talk to him. i want to be like "look we went through so much together and i do think about you all the time. i was angry and hurt. i want to be the best person i can be with a clear conscious. I believe the things you did to me were horrible. im not going to sit here and point at you the whole time. I was hurt and angry because when i needed you the most you were the one who was selfish. you looked at my drunk and decided it was about you not about what i was going through. there are always 2 sides of every story.
if more. i found out that you cheated on me the same day my grandma passed away. instead of getting to see her for the LAST time you took the money and rented a hotel room for you and your ugly mistress.
but i was angry, not any more. i want more in my life than anger. i want to be happy and healthy in more than just one way. "
im thinking a few shots of tequilla can get me to stand there ha ha ha. but i want to look great!
i need to tell him i know he was flirting with michelle, janie, all the things that happened between him and jess, and other women too.
any way, so today im supposed to weight 192. you know if i jump on that scale and see 192 im going to go out of my fucking mind with excitement!! in one week i can get down to 178 if i continue on this 2 lbs per day advantage.
im just drinking my coffee i got work at 12 today and i close. last night i talked to dustin. he just assured me he was tired. its been 5 days since we had sex. i fucking hate it. im just going to get him to fix the car. stop worrying about if he's cheating on me because honestly i dont give a fuck any more. if he is really going to lie to me about it then so be it. i tried my best to be a great gf. money wise it sucks but hell i tried. i tried to look good, be in a good mood even though i dont want to, treat him when ever i can.
wait im sick of men.
i want to lose weight for me. i want to lose weight because it will help my marathon training. i want to run that marathon for me, grandma, and mike larsen.
he is up and that gives me anxiety
any way i hope im at 192 today. that will be a 19 lb loss. and when i hit 191 that is a 20 lb loss. when i hit 181 that will be a 30 lb victory and i think i might go get my nose pierced. i dont know yet.
i bought some more aloe vera so i can use it on my skin!! so happy. what a wonderful thing to use on my skin. i just love it!! god i conditioned my hair last night and it is so fucking soft and it smells wonderful. i used my aloe vera last night on my skin under lotion and it feels wonderful too. my acne is disappearing too which is so nice. i cant wait to have my clear skin back.
looking forward
193 lbs today :) not my best but it will do
so my anticipated weight loss today is 192. if this is the case. with what im doing on top of atkins, i should be losing weight at a rate of 2 lbs per day.. and that is what i have been seeing.
so if you SHOULD be losing weight at a rate of 2lbs per week and i increased mine to 2 lbs per day is that 7x the amount?
i went through my ex's email last night. he is having a fucking baby. and to top that they are going to name her lily cora. which i dont know how to take that since cora was the name of the baby juan and i were going to name when we had one.
i dont know if i should flatter myself by saying he liked the name i picked out and wanted a part of me to be with that baby???
or did he just like that name very much. some times i wonder if im ocd. i over analyze things to the breaking point.
i guess i just want to break his heart like he broke mine. make him miss me. i do think about him often. he has given me quite a bit to learn about myself.
really all i want to do is talk with him. i want to tell him things that i have wanted to tell him. not sorry for what i did but sorry the whole thing got so out of control. and sorry we fought. sorry for trashing the place. i was coherced into doing it. just like he destroyed something nice of mine, i destroyed something of his and that was not fair because i do not believe in an eye for an eye.
i want to talk to him. i want to be like "look we went through so much together and i do think about you all the time. i was angry and hurt. i want to be the best person i can be with a clear conscious. I believe the things you did to me were horrible. im not going to sit here and point at you the whole time. I was hurt and angry because when i needed you the most you were the one who was selfish. you looked at my drunk and decided it was about you not about what i was going through. there are always 2 sides of every story.
if more. i found out that you cheated on me the same day my grandma passed away. instead of getting to see her for the LAST time you took the money and rented a hotel room for you and your ugly mistress.
but i was angry, not any more. i want more in my life than anger. i want to be happy and healthy in more than just one way. "
im thinking a few shots of tequilla can get me to stand there ha ha ha. but i want to look great!
i need to tell him i know he was flirting with michelle, janie, all the things that happened between him and jess, and other women too.
any way, so today im supposed to weight 192. you know if i jump on that scale and see 192 im going to go out of my fucking mind with excitement!! in one week i can get down to 178 if i continue on this 2 lbs per day advantage.
im just drinking my coffee i got work at 12 today and i close. last night i talked to dustin. he just assured me he was tired. its been 5 days since we had sex. i fucking hate it. im just going to get him to fix the car. stop worrying about if he's cheating on me because honestly i dont give a fuck any more. if he is really going to lie to me about it then so be it. i tried my best to be a great gf. money wise it sucks but hell i tried. i tried to look good, be in a good mood even though i dont want to, treat him when ever i can.
wait im sick of men.
i want to lose weight for me. i want to lose weight because it will help my marathon training. i want to run that marathon for me, grandma, and mike larsen.
he is up and that gives me anxiety
any way i hope im at 192 today. that will be a 19 lb loss. and when i hit 191 that is a 20 lb loss. when i hit 181 that will be a 30 lb victory and i think i might go get my nose pierced. i dont know yet.
i bought some more aloe vera so i can use it on my skin!! so happy. what a wonderful thing to use on my skin. i just love it!! god i conditioned my hair last night and it is so fucking soft and it smells wonderful. i used my aloe vera last night on my skin under lotion and it feels wonderful too. my acne is disappearing too which is so nice. i cant wait to have my clear skin back.
looking forward
193 lbs today :) not my best but it will do
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