oh boy oh boy... marathon

so i've gotten a lot of stress out of my life now. and the weight seems to be coming off. i dont have any time any more to be writing. it makes me a bit sad but im going to write even if its just a paragraph. i wanna keep going on my other blog as well. the as seen on tv one. i loved writing on that one.
jeez i had a weird dream last night. so weird.
any way atkins is going way great, was having a problem with the cheese. so i tried a day with out it and that went good. then i got into my veggies a bit more. more water and fiber. i drink coffee every morning and i have had drinks, but they have not affected my weight loss. yesterday i ran 2 miles today i shoot for 4 because its on my routine now. tomorrow i have class AND a 6 mile run. monday i have off.

http://www.utahvalleymarathon.com/

thats the website for the marathon. i've been doing very well. lost a pant size, now im back to a 14 and i can fit snugly into a 12 size skirt.
shirts fit better!! anxiety is down a bit. but it gets up there during TOM. i have some radical music on my ipod to pump me up for running.
lots of techno or i just do katie perry.
so i got a car, got back into classes, im working, and live in lehi so its been really quite busy. its not even the big things its the little things. i havent even been able to hang out with some friends let alone talk to them. it makes me feel bad. but my uncle tells me that i should be more focused on work and school. he is right. shit. i need to find a balance. next goal.

wow

so i have been running a lot lately. i've been using this lipodrene but i think i have become acustomed to it. so now i had to up what the dose i was taking.

im constipated. LOL. i have been eating way too much fucking cheese. so today my goal is to not eat any god dang cheese today. i think i may have taken too much of this stuff. woops. i feel jittery and shaky.
i drank coffee with it too my bad.
lame., im awake though! i weighed myself at 199 today which is bs. but its because i havent been taking my milk thistle correctly. god im waiting to hear back from this guy i met online. he is in the navy.

he wrote this to me:

I hope I am not being a bother but you are honestly the most beautiful woman I have ever seen! How on earth are you single? I know its cheesy but you are truly the epitome of beautiful! I would absolutely love to get to know you if you were at all interested. If so email me at


I am out to sea right now so the internet is really slow.


he seems really sweet! i cant wait to hear back from him. i really cant. its like were hitting it off really well. i met this other guy online too. he seems like a sleez though.
any way.
finally my stomach is starting to feel better. my face broke out so much i dont know whats up. maybe its because im getting detoxed or something.
so last night i put toothpaste on my face so that it could clear up and i didnt wear makeup today besides eye liner and mascara. so my face could have a chance to breath.
its oily jesus so oily. im going to try and go today with out cheese. then i am going to drink an extra liter of water today. jesus im shaky too. good god. so shaky.
im hoping when i get home i can weigh in and see where im at. my goal for this month is to lose ten pounds. so to be 180 by the start of march. then by the start of april be down to 170. my chest hurts.

today 5.45

i ran 5.45 miles today. it took me an hour to run. i was very proud of myself.

oi 1 week 1 day on induction

last night i slept very well. i woke up slow but refreshed. now im sipping coffee n blogging :) i have a coffee date with this guy named greg. he is a vegan. and he has lost some weight. i just felt an instant connection with this guy. so i took a chance and asked him to coffee. we text yesterday a bit. it was pretty friendly. nothing crazy and sexy although that would have been nice. i cant wait to see what monday at 11 am at the coffee shop off 114th and bestie buy and game stop. im excited. by then ill look great. and also i gotta ask for that day off just in case we go do something else. it would be really cool if we just could not stop talking and went for lunch lol
11 is a great time for coffee and then hit up lunch if need beeeeeee.
i already notice my clothes are fitting nicer. my one pair of jeans my good ones are losey goosy. i would wear that and do my  hair nice and make up and smell good. and not too nice just casual ahhhh god i dont think i've ever been on a date with a stranger. except for a blind date. but this is nerve racking LOL its kind of fun
now i know when alll these people say just date and have fun i know what they mean!! although i feel guilt from not telling these other guys that im dating other people. i should just say hey im seeeing other people. i hope this guy is not seeing any one. and i hope he's the one who suggests we go out again. id love to borrow some books ya know.

any way. kept on thinking about dan last night. boy i like him
i told him i really liked him and i could not stop thinking about him and i feel as though he got a little distant. i think when i go out there to visit i need to be really easy going and calming. thats my goal. but its for me too you know.
any way so i weighed in at 198. today not too shabby. especially this soon after my period its nice. lol
all this water in about a week i know i will see about 193 no problem. that will be nice to be 193 by the end of the month. i have been seeing 1 lb per day off me. so im thinking keep up and by monday (coffee date) thats 5-6 lbs. thats around 193 192!! sweetness!! oh joy!!!apetite is way down. way way way down.
i get full so fast. and i dont crave bullshit foods. this is great. im happy.
god i feel like i have just been working and working and working. holy shit. man. i gotta find a second job soon. so i can make more money.
my nails have grown nicely and my hair looks fucking great! my attitude is fabulous!! oh im so proud of myself for doing this!!! i inspired my aunt to start working out again!! poor auntie is having a hard time at work.
they are really dicking her around there
so instead of going for a beer she went to exercise  im very proud of her for that. gosh i am already seeing some great progress with my weight loss. i am loving this!! i cannot wait until the end of the month well 4 days to see what i will look like. come feb i know i can get down to 180. thats my goal. it might be hard because if im only at 195 thats 15 lbs i need to lose by the end of feb. i can do it but its going to be rough. but if i can get down to 190 sooner then that would be great. if i can just get to 190 sooner and lose it within the first week of feb then i know i got almost a 3 weeks to get to 180. but look if i can lose 8 lbs in one week thats a little more than a pound a day. i gotta try to get rid of this weight in a week. and thats why i started taking the milk thistle was so i can actually see my progress. so tomorrow im anticipating 197. and hopefully by the 2end of feb i can get to 191. thats ok with me. then ill only have 11 lbs to lose in that month. i got so much money i need to save. i just want to blog all day about my weight loss and my goals but i cant LOL so i will leave to run. and i hope i have a great run today. then ill eat an egg if i can eat. LOLoh this kid told me he loved me. i want to watch something about marry so bad. i feel like her. oh man i can feel my hip bones super good right now my stomach is not too flat yet but a few more pounds and it should be slimmer :)
 ok enough LOL ciao

wow.... you'd never guess some lessons

so i have counted Wes, Austin, Jeremy, are in love with me. i'd never thought i'd have 3 at the same time. this is nice. but really i think i like my friend Dan the most. He's really nice.
any way today i ran 2.2 miles today. i had to split it up. 1 in am and 2end in pm
tomorrow i want to run 2 miles in the morning.
i get to sleep in thank god!! so if i have work at noon, then it takes me 15 minutes to get to work
so leave at 1145 wake up at 9 am.

appetite has been nice. no hunger no cravings. i am doing well for myself. i got my milk thistle back and i've been running. i drank 3 liters of water today. i just gotta keep up with this stuff.. ... i think i may do my 1 mile a day at least then maybe something else.
i have been so diligent on my diet. its been only one week out of my 2 week induction phase
so i think im going to stay on this and buy some of those ketosis strips. im going to sleep really good tonight

my goal is to get to 180 by the end of feb. then the end of march to be at 170
feb 180
march 170
april 160
may 150
june 140?
so im at 199 right now. i just got rid of some water weight. boooger
now this week i gotta keep count and track of my calories.
today i really didnt eat anything half a zuchini, cheese, 1/4 salad, dinner 2 boca burgers mustard cheese and lettuce.

staying ways from everything is ok for me. milk thistle is helping and so is the lipodrene
im really hoping that in a few days i can lose a bit more
199 i hope i wake up tomorrow at 197 or less.

197-6
= 191 is fine by me.
so now i just gotta go little by little and watch that scale


i think if i eat eggs for breakfast 2 eggs, coffee and salsa that is 140 calories 2 carbs

lunch is a salad that is usually 445 or so  3 carbs
dinner is tuna and spinach with cheese or salsa which is around 200 calories 1-2


im not really eating enough thats only about 800 calories per day

by my calculations i should be losing 5.6 pounds per week.
well see what happens. i think if i just burn 1100 calories per day + my bmr is 1722 i should be seeing weight loss
and you know what i have been seeing it  i have like lose pants now!! WOOt

going the distance 1

so today is my day off from running. tomorrow i have a four mile run. i need to be at work at 8:30 am
so if i wake up at 6:00 run and i will have time to shower.
nice. i am at 200 right now. i gotta get some milk thistle today. and i need to drink much more water. were not drinking for a few months here at the house so that is good. i have not been too good about eating cheese. but its much better eating cheese than eating bread. now i need to take my lipodrene and i havent really seen any progress with it. so this week i gotta run. 15-16 miles that first week.
it takes 150 calories per mile ran and that is 2250 calories burned that week. i need to watch it with the calories this week. so im going to keep up on that first week for a month so i get used to it. then work on the second week later.
really i have just been eating eggs, salad, veggies, tuna, cheese, oil and vinegar, pickles (i know they are killing me) LOL
i drink coffee too. so i started on spark again. so i can get some extra help keeping track of my calories.
i feel like i should go for a run today. im going to have to wait to pay for my marathon. im going to go workout now.

oh jeeeezie

so today im at the library. i have been eating lately which has been really nice. last night i had a spinach salad with cheese and salsa and tuna. i ate three times yesterday. it was nice and i ran one mile last night. 11:41 was my lap time. im proud of that because i shaved some 19 secs off my time. im going to shoot for 11.26 tonight. quit smoking. i had one yesterday and i can really feel it in my chest today. so goal today,drinking my 8 glasses of water, no smoking, run 1 mile in 11.26 and do some elliptical. eat.
i had my 3 eggs today for breakfast and coffee. with cheese.
so about 280 calories, and 4 carbs for breakfast. and lunch i dont know if i'd be hungry
probably just another salad. today is day 2 of work. my aunt and uncle are thinking about helping me with a car. so i can work and such. my chest really hurts. i was a tad sore today. starting out at one mile slowly but surely i will get there.maybe not too slow. i would like to get my miles down to 9 minutes per mile. thats 2 .5 minutes to cut. oh boy. that will take some work.running a 5 k in 20 minutes is roughly 6 minute miles. so my period started on the 18th and the last day i had to weigh myself with an ok number was the 17th. so im trying to see if i can lose weight. im taking lipodrene and its been helping with my issues. it puts me in a better mood and gives me energy
i eat way less too. i dont want to eat shit. so far i have drank 2 waters
eaten breakfast and taken my lipodrene.