so today is day 14 of induction. and i am drinking some coffee right now, getting ready to get ready ha ha ha
getting ready for my day. i have work today and i will be going over to help some elderly people. wow that made me sound like a real hero huh...
its 0730 and i am only having to go to work for 2 hours. tomorrow i start school! i need to get a note book and folder/binder im sure. any way, last night dustin and i went to red lobster and they had the all you can eat shrimp. which believe me, was amazing. got kind of gassy but it was ok. dustin and i took some pictures last night. and then he took one of me, well several of me that i didnt really care for because i looked really fat. i was trying so hard to pose a certain way. i mean i didnt have to worry about a double chin any more which was really nice but i did worry about my arms, and my stomach. yikes. we were starting to chill out after that and he was going to pick me up, but then he noticed he could feel my ribs and that made me feel so good! we both took some daring photos, but there were some that he took that he really liked. basically took me out of my own skin!!it was pretty exciting. i would have never done anything like that.
i was wearing my ring was soo loose yesterday i flipped my hand a few times and it slipped right off. its a size 9 and i know its wrong since he and i went to look at rings a few weeks ago and i was a size 8.
he and i got into a fight about 2 nights ago. he lashed out at me accusing me of not paying much attention to him since i have my "blogging, and your running" he made me feel as if caring about myself and bettering myself was a fucking crime. come to find out, after we talked for a bit, that he is just depressed because he doesnt have anything going for him. so i asked him what he wanted or what he can see himself doing and he just said "all i see myself doing is being a parent, I want to take care of my children" and i thought that was so fucking sweet.
that man amazes me all the time. i do do a lot with my free time and i do want to do a lot in my future. its ok for him to not know what he wants to do right now. and its sad that he is depressed i was there and he just listened to me and told me things will work out ok for me. and i should not worry or think i was a failure. he's where i was a few weeks ago. now that i got my job and such im doing much better. im always excited for tomorrow.
today resident evil comes out!!! were going to go see it!
he is working with his dad today and i have a few hours at work.
he gets unemployment. i just would like for him to find a hobby. so far all its been is at the computer and god knows what else he does on it too. mmmm veggie patty. egg whites, cheese, and CADO!!
yumm
breakfast usually ends up being like 5 carbs each day. 198 on the scale today. i have 15 minutes to get ready and leave so, ill end it with, cant wait for this water weight to end NOW
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