day five induction

I weighed in today and I am very happy to say I have lost 10 lbs in only 5 days!! Cravings are gone, headaches are gone, hunger gone, and today I feel most amazing.

I weigh 197 today. So I hit a goal!

GOAL 1: 197 MET!!!
GOAL 2: 192
GOAL 3: 190
GOAL 4: 188
GOAL 5: 186
GOAL 6: 184
GOAL 7: 182
GOAL 8: 180
GOAL 9: 178
GOAL 10: 176
GOAL 11: 174
GOAL 12: 172
GOAL 13: 170
GOAL 14: 168
GOAL 15:  166
GOAL 16: 164
GOAL 17: 162
GOAL 18: 160
GOAL 19: 158
GOAL 20: 156
GOAL 21: 154
GOAL 22: 153

good for me! I am very satisfied with this right now. I love this way of eating. My eyes are very puffy today from all the crying I did last night.

Last night I went to go have a talk with my parents. My sister came too. We were each others support. 

Well, my mom was high on anti anxiety pills or high off weed or something because she was not acting "with it" 

I felt ashamed of her that she could not even sit in front of me and ever talk to me. I have some mom issues. I blew up on her. I have had my fair share of her bullshit and I am done. She has hurt me and my sister. Alienated my family and I do not wish to be apart of her life nor does she even deserve to be apart of mine. 

We were trying to discuss the whole parents moving to Texas thing, they were downplaying the situation making Cassy feel like she is "just domestic" and saying that her plans are not as ambitious as mine. 

so that made cassy sad. I was trying to just really sit in and be apart of the family, however I felt very unwelcome.  The only reason I had anything to do with her in the first place was because of my grandpa and my dad. This is my own damn decision, I hate that woman. she is a piece of shit. 

So I went home and got so drunk I was throwing up and spinning.

I know I cannot do that. I was out of control last night and I hate feeling like that. I need to not let her get to me any more.

So I will lose weight, go to school and become everything that she is not. I need to do some home work and make sure that I am going to be successful rather than a failure unlike my parents.

I really do feel so much better today. I didn't have to work today which is great! 

hungover like a beast today though which sucks.

I got my pounds and inches book from the internet today. Im still waiting for a few things like my note book sleeve and my b vitamins.

im going to sign up for my cna class and get that over with so i can go to nursing school.

I want to show cassy that its possible to do this.

I cannot wait to hit my second goal 192. that is only 5 lbs away!! if i got 10 in 5 days maybe i could get another 10?? i know i am in ketosis for sure my face is always hot.

wow just thinking if i had lost another 10 lbs in 5 days what that would be like for me i would be at 187. and i would be  only 7 lbs away from where i left off in march. i would look smokin good.

180 was a size 14 for me. that means i would need to go get my jeans taken in and i can wear some other things. i am really really really excited!!! i have lost 10 lbs.i feel so good.