since im not eating. all im preoccupied about is fucking food!!!! im tired of it!!
i want this hcg cookbook. they have lots of really good things in here.
i want to be able to eat blueberries since i have a huge bag of them. dang. it would be so nice not to have to go out and rebuy a huge thing of strawberries.
so grocery list is:
tuna, shrimp
cilantro
tomatoes
white onion
bag of broccoli
lettuce
strawberries??
apples
im just wasting time really. i have a pt to go see in about 2 hours. so im sitting at starbucks at barnes and noble sitting in front of an interview happening.
i could really go for a few things right now. some tuna, end a hard boiled egg and my melba toast LOL
god im reading about these people who are starving as well on the diet. this sucks big tits. im so so so hungry right now and the smell of cinnamon is soooo smelly. yum.yum.
i wanna eat. im glad that im saving my food for when i get home. i have about an hour before i need to leave here. then it takes me about 45 minutes to take care of this pt. so i can be home at about 7:30 pm. being thin is what i want. im tired of being over weight. although i have lost a huge chunk of weight the one thing that is sticking to me and upsetting me is that i went from this
180- lowest weight march
190-may
195- june
198-july
207-august
199-sept
190-sept
194-now sept.
my weight fluctuates so much. ive been up and down and im so tired of it.
i just want to be done with it. i can let this beat me though. i can eat when i get home. i plan on stopping at the store and buying some shrimp and stuff.
so i guess blueberries are not allowed. i will eat tuna since its cheap and i can eat it. im just going to keep looking at costumes to decide ...
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